Ever had this feeling too?
When you feel so confident in yourself that you just start doing artwork, because you know you will do your absolute best, and you do.
That's, like, the ultimate rush of dopamine for me! Lol
Then pair it with some banging and relaxing music?
Forgetta'bout it!
It's over.
It's done.
Finito!
Here, you earned a cookie.
🍪
:)
Oh, and let's not forget, when you start uploading artwork that's not even finished yet, but you want to just show— because fuck it, lol
You just... *sighs*
You feel good about the work you do and how hard you work on your stuff, that it's just nice to appreciate yourself for it~♥
Feeling Better!~
My flu symptoms are gone, thank goodness!
I'm glad it only lasted for 2 days.
Now I can get back into some creative work!
Unfortunately, probably won't be drawing too much this week... I'm in the mood to write a little. When I'm in that mode, art block kind of sneaks into my brain and robs my motivation to draw.
:|
There's so much I gotta finish...
Fully Vaccinated!
As of Friday, June 4th 2021, I am experiencing flu symptoms now.
Don't worry, nothing serious is going on (before this, I took an EXTREME amount of a prescribed narcotic painkiller, which wasn't smart for my age and weight, but Ill explain at another time), but I do have body aches, chills, a bit of a headache, and just generally weak.
I move SUPER slow when I'm walking around the house. I have pain in some areas where my body aches are. I can't really breathe too good at times (but this is really from stress/ the painkiller I took), and I don't want to eat much.
I tried to sleep today,
BUT I FAILED HORRIBLY xD
I woke up around 4-5am and never went back to sleep like I wanted to.
I went to bed last night around 9-10pm.
I'm okay though. I just thought I could sleep these symptoms off during the day.
I do feel better about getting the last shot. I feel much more confident being around my friends and family, but I will still wear a mask for the most part.
By the way, this is the only time I ever had some serious symptoms since the first vaccine.
Oh! And because I will be MIA due to these symptoms, I won't be posting too much, but if you still want to see any content from me, follow me on Instagram!~
@ pink_paws01
I usually post a lot more over there than here on dA anyway. I also post memes, funny clips from social media, and whatever else I may want to share with you guys—its all good fun!
Thanks for recent llama badges, watches, and favorites guys! I know they are really insignificant to a degree, but I appreciate it more than you know.
Hope to see you on Instagram~
When Did it Start?
When did I stop uploading as much as I did?
When did deviantART become so... empty?
When did it become so unfulfilling to be on here now?
Where did that once very vibrant, communicative, and friendly vibe go on here?
Its not the same, yes, and I realize to a degree that some change is good. There is still good here. There is.
But...
It feels meaningless on here and that's the keyword here.
"Feels"
If you disagree, do so. If it works for you, that's fine.
But I've been on here since the 2000s. DeviantART definitely lost its charm in some way now.
To me.
At first, I thought it was me.
I thought I just didn't talk enough, comment, reply, favorite, whatever.
I thought I wasn't drawing enough.
I thought my artwork was too amateur.
I thought I needed more interaction and watchers.
The numbers climbed, but the engagement fell over the years.
Feel free to tell me its me. Its okay if it is. I'll accept that.
Because the reason I came here, was to engage with others with what I'm passionate about.
I came here to share my passion.
I came here to learn and maybe inspire others along the way.
I came here to grow my skills, get my ideas out somewhere...
If I left deviantART for good, where the hell could I go?
There's options, of course. I'm aware.
But its still so goddamn difficult to attach myself to somewhere else.
And even now, while I'm instagram, furaffinity, tumblr, twitter, twitch, youtube, vimeo...
I don't feel welcomed.
I feel isolated.
So... I am asking why.
I am curious as to why I feel so... disappointed, unmotivated, ashamed, and angry.
Is it the people?
Is it my morals?
Is it my lack of understanding?
I wish I knew.
I have to reflect more than I thought.
What I Do to Cope
- Listen to music ("Try Everything" *English, Ukrainian, Korean, Mandarin*, "Yeha Noha" *Sacred Spirit*, "Gateway Galaxy" *Super Mario Galaxy*, "Share My Life" *Kem*, "Dig A Little Deeper" *The Princess & The Frog*, "Almost There" *The Princess & The Frog*, "Stitches" *Shawn Mendes*)
- Talk to my therapist (normally by appointment ; I have to call her around certain hours & sometimes even she's not available)
- Talk to family (my irl friends are usually either really busy, stressed themselves, or not reachable)
- Look at other artists' artwork
- Play/ spend time with pets
- Go outside
- Rest in bed (I prefer just sleeping)
- Eat something sweet or a rare delicacy (e.g. sushi)
- Clean, clean, clean... (it never stops at my home, trust me)